When my intuition, that little voice that doesn't listen to the nonsense of my mind and fears, speaks to me I try and listen. I can no longer hide from its voice and pretend that I have a better plan. I cannot disregard the deeper knowing of my soul. If only it didn't guide me into my fears and the kind of growth that I don't always feel ready for.
Guided by my intuition, I have left my comfy home that I have lived in for over thirty years. The place where I raised my children and became the me, that I am. I worked in my home, wrote my books, nurtured others and my self. The first day I walked in the house many years ago, I felt a grandmotherly presence who let me know that this was home, my safe shelter. I knew it and felt it. The house itself was literally falling apart. The roof was so bad you could see the sky. The house did not have any heat or air conditioning and the one bathroom was mostly rotting wood. My husband and I had little money so we did most of the repair and renovation work ourselves. Later when more money came in, we hired others and built an addition. My husband left me and the house over sixteen years ago. I stayed safe in her walls and continued on.
A few years ago, I felt the house telling me that it was getting time to go. The kids had long gone and I was there alone. It started to feel big and empty and I knew that she (the house), was done with me. I feel a pull to stay, but like any nest we eventually outgrow it and as wonderful as it is, we have to go. Intuitively, I knew it was time, my heart and soul told me so. But my mind, my human self, wanted to hold on tight and continue to live and work in this nurturing space.
But I know better. Intuition is my life and I have learned to truly listen. I left the house about a week ago and moved to a lovely home across from a lake. I don't know what life now holds for me. Everything has changed. I know it is useless to worry about the future and what is to come. There is a plan, of this I am sure. However not all the plans for my life have been easy and without challenge. I have my fingers crossed that I can go forward in kindness and gentleness.
I so much want the house that I have left, to be a blessing for someone else. As I go through the process of selling her. I want to let others know that she has a beautiful heart and soul. The layout might be lousy and there is still much work to be done, but she is kind and will take care of whoever makes their home here.
To those of you who came to my home for readings and sessions, my new door is open to you. I am a few miles south, yet you can enjoy the quiet and the lake and maybe discover something new yourself.